What is love

Greetings, and good afternoon.

This topic came across my mind last night, but since it was too late (see my revolution to better my life pattern?) I decided to write it the next day.

I'll be home for Christmas

To all who care, (though I don't expect many)

I'm in a holiday. It's just occurred to me that I'm having one. Home sweet home. Cliche. Home is not always sweet. At times it can be spicy and sour as well. But anyway it's better than tasteless. Much better.

I was away for this past week. But I was not away from home. Right. There's some other places I would call home. What defines home? A place you write as your address? It's called house, not exactly home! Well at least for me.

This week was, great. I had so much fun till I don't count time anymore, it just ended so quickly. Well all good times are. Have fun until you feel time goes so fast. I read once that it's healthy. Sad. But well, I had fun. It's definitely better than pretending that I did. Having a real thing is absolutely better. Now I think I'll use my vocal cords more often for the rest of this holiday. Singing cures loneliness. Music is like my life, and I'm not exaggerating. My strongest memories of this week is music. It flowed from anywhere. The radio in cars I rode, TV and radio in that living room, from the room I was in, the room next door, the bathroom (...), and anywhere. Sometimes I would sing along, either the higher or lower harmony. There were many chance to do so. Even if I shy myself away many times, at the end I realized I sang quite a lot. I didn't feel alone at all, even when I was alone physically.

Cut it short. I don't want to spill it all. A lot of people would call this 'emo ranting' or whatever. Believe it, some people will just do. My memories and thoughts are my treasures. I simply don't want it to be stained by irresponsible and/or short minded people. I'm easily misunderstood enough.

Then why do I have this not-so-private blog? Dunno.

Maybe, I just want to give some people chance. To know me better, and hopefully, in the right way.

I'm glad if there're people who would bother themselves to check this out, and even more, give me some of your thoughts. But be gentle, please. It's a peaceful corner.

Oh yeah, Christmas is around the corner! I like Christmas. Out of religious reasons (which already matter much for me), it's a time when people gather, not in compulsory and auto pilot manner, at least not in my surrounding, but out of their will and desire to gather around and have some good time together. I can't say I love crowd, but I like this kind of feeling when people gather and be friendly to each other, willingly. It's just love that keep them close, I think. I'll meet people I want to meet again at that time. Those who I think deeply about, who I hold close to my thoughts since long.

There's many, many insincere gathering around nowadays, which I don't like, because although smiles are abound and a lot of noise were produced, for me it often feels like a masked party. There's no real point in it if the people aren't being honest with themselves in enjoying the time.

But for now, I don't want to write many about that. I'm in a good mood, right now, maybe.

I want to enjoy my time here. In any way I can, if possible.

Happy holiday,

aurell4173