Something to remember.

Last night was fun-tastic. What else can I say? A successful event that we pulled off after several vigorous rehearsals and even longer planning, a duty which I enjoyed tremendously, all those screams and cheers and laughters and nail paintings and high-fives and bounces and photos and hugs - basically frantic joys obscured from the audiences' point-of-views, a relaxing (yes I'm not kidding) observations during the dance floor, and the unbelievable after-party that lasted nearly as long as the event itself. It was an escapist's paradise - a night out of routines that would become a lasting memory.

However, the sun had risen once more. It's time to be back in reality. In fact, reality had hit me during the night itself, but for once, I chose not to mind it. But now.. okay. It's real. It's reality.

Confusion. Progression. Regression. Well, I have heard some advices and opinions. I like some of them, I admit. However, where I would step next is still.. unclear. "Never mind me." Yes, I've even incorporated that simplifying concept that would boost my decision-making progress most of the time, but still..

And that brought me to a step back I've involuntarily taken in this progress of self-consolidation. No, I'm not masochistic. But you see, one's opinion toward oneself is one the most subjective opinions that one would ever got, not to mention there is a high chance that it is tainted with biases; that is a given fact. Therefore, in times when fast decision making must be endured, that is one kind of opinions I would ignore faster. Full of loopholes, the rationale is, I admit. But so far, it serves its function quite well - to avoid conflicts. Yes, I know that; in fact I'm trying to better it and that is actually one of the main focuses in this process.

Keep yourself alive and stop over-thinking things? I wish I know how.