My last 6 months worth of lesson very roughly summarized.

"Is there really a point to a world where everyone is happy? Are people who struggle for a better life just idiots?  

Being human is about fighting even when it seems hopeless, and finding happiness even in a world that hates it."

~VLR.

Paper

My heart is a paper heart.
Someone unknown dripped tears onto it
and ripped a part of it while I was asleep.
There was no pain and no sound.
But my heart is a paper heart.
On the part that isn't the missing part,
there is a small scribble,
and the scribble spells out "E-M-P-T-I-N-E-S-S".

Sky Sky Sky

So I attempted digital painting for a 3 hour speed painting challenge. Finished it under 2.1 hours and still managed to fail the challenge with a prolonged dinner, a hunt for my sore throat medication and a fantastically laggy computer and internet connection.

Anyway, this pic has nowhere to go so might as well leaving it here.

Galau fest

Nothing much, just a couple of videos under the cut. Tonight's playlist. 

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I honestly don't know who's been reading this log and how many of readers I actually have, but might as well advertise here. This is for people who live in / with access to Bandung, Indonesia:

All are welcomed! Come to 
2013 Blood Donation Drive @ Sukajadi Police Station! 
On: 29 July 2013, 0700 - noon-ish  
Happily organised by Wilayah 3 Gereja St. Laurensius, with helps and supports with our parish, multiple religions' representatives, Indonesian Red Cross, our local police force and sponsors.
Free T-shirts and special homemade mung bean soup lovingly prepared by Wilayah 3's housewives, the best home cooks around. Who really needs incentives when we can get a chance to actually save lives but we'll give them away anyway~ :D

Any changes in dates and details will be posted here too, so for the first time ever I'll request those who are planning to come to stay tune on this page.

I'll be there too :) Do come to do good (for the support of inter-faith peace too yay), and if you're lucky you may get to try my mom's soup. Mom's one amazing cook and my involvement with the cooking will most likely be minor so don't be too alarmed. xD

On Stunts

With each passing day, my resolve is being traced and threaded carefully. Am I prepared to make the leap? Going out of my comfort zone is one thing - hell, I don't even know where my comfort zone is, being a nomadic individual I am - this is more like jumping from a train's roof onto a piece of rope hanging from a passing heli, all the while praying for the choppers to fly higher instead of get hit by a bird-strike.

...I watch too many action movies and stunt shows and take the combat classes a bit too seriously. They raise my adrenaline make life interesting, though.

Cloud Four

So I just pulled off a busy day. Good. It was really amusing when nobody believed I ran a full exercise routine, took a shower, chilled in the steam room, took a detour to the bookshop, bought a light meal all in the course of one hour and still managed to stay awake throughout the movie. Clearly I wasn't even trying to convince them, though. That glorious achievement shall be burned into my mind and my mind alone uhh not really cos I'm sharing it now but never miiiind.

:)

In celebration, I shall try to wake up early and conjure up some beautiful breakfast course tomorrow.

A new common cause has appeared.

So at the end of today's (Saturday) mass, my parish announced that they're planning to build a new church because ours is getting quite... overloaded. The traffic congestions we are causing are, at least.

They've found a nice piece of land in a nice area. They've settled some kind of deal. They still need a LOT of money to really buy it though, but our dear parish priest holds a vehement belief that our people will be generous enough to make it possible. (So passionate was he in convincing himself us that he actually slammed the podium while saying so. Gotta love our parish pastor. And his Dutch+Sundanese accent. Always.)

He also mentioned that the real challenge lies in the, of course, bureaucratic stuffs. Even he admitted that this one may be the most problematic of all (and that really says something, considering how.. fascinating our fund collection can be).

Nevertheless, there's only one thing we, as a parish, can do for that one : to quote him,

"BERDOALAH." End quote.

:/

just another saturday night

Well considering that I managed to recreate (albeit horribly) some lines.. this redness worths it I guess.

It has always been a vivid image. Me escaping reality into sleep while he plays it nonchalantly. Up until five years ago, I'd been taking it for granted. Nevertheless, we have to admit that this kind of things is not going to occur more often... more like the opposite, even. 

It's okay. If I want a lullaby, I'll just have to make it myself.