On Timeline

The previous post was basically (and quite obviously) posted in the wrong log. (laugh) But, oh well. What is a nice sky without some stormy days.

So I was perching at my usual place, sorting things out while trying to cram some chemistry concepts in...

Colours

"...and when the boy opened his grey orbs, he saw an array of colours. So amazed he was, he wondered how he could not notice all this gradients and splashes before, each of them bringing distinct stories for him.

Letters

"Dear you, who is reading this letter, where are you and what are you doing now?
For me who's 15 years old, there are seeds of worries I can't tell anyone.
If it's a letter addressed to my future self, surely I can truly confide in myself.
Now, it seems that I'm about to be defeated and cry.
For someone who's seemingly about to disappear, whose words should I believe in?
...
Dear you, thank you. I have something to tell the 15 years old you.
If you continue asking what and where you should be going,
you'll be able to see the answer."

~"Tegami" - Angela Aki.

Been listening to this song since years ago and still loving it now. And this version makes me missing those choir days  :)

"Have a Good Time"

Yesterday it was my birthday.
I hung one more year on the line.
I should be depressed.
My life's a mess.
But I'm having a good time.

I've been loving and loving and loving.
I'm exhausted from loving so well
I should go to bed.
But a voice in my head says,
"Ah, what the hell."

~Paul Simon

Quoted from the opening line of a Haruki Murakami's anthology - Birthday Stories. :)

On Motivation

Rather than thinking if this is possible or not, I'd rather distract myself with other thoughts. Happy thoughts. Sad thoughts. Smile inducing thoughts. Thoughts that would make me feel like kicking through a wall and running towards something worth pursuing.

I think it's something like...

"I know more than you'd like."
"But no more than I allow."
"Then again, more than you know."

...

Ok can. Play on.

But

I just can't help it. Nobody does. First of all, it makes me feel alive almost like no other.

Hi. It's you. Again.

How I detest it when somebody manages to see through that clouded keyhole, but the definition of truth still won't change in the near future. I may not be a sportswoman in career, but I value integrity.


Stay. There. Wait, no. Never mind. Just go and I'll still wish you all the best anyway.


Why? Because. Because there are so many reasons I don't know where to start, so I'll leave it like that. The one who should know won't bother to know anyway, and others who don't need to know should stay oblivious. 


You... Ah well, you know what, never mind. Words don't work for us. Never have and never will.


Really sorry to betray anyone's expectation, but while I don't mind not winning most of the time, I simply hate to lose to the ones that I don't want to lose to. That's all.