BY NO MEans ALL is NORMAL

..is what I chanted during Math today. Complete with a set of melody (in an 'An Die Freude' style) and some more lines I came up with on the spot. Truly signs of a gone case.
I knew something is not right, up there. Oh boy.

Rainbow

"You come down to me from somewhere
and constantly point out to me
the happiness that could be found nearby."
~Rainbow

I remember being around... 11 or 12? when I first saw this video. Being a mere pre-teen, my mind was blown :) , especially because I've, coincidentally, read about the meaning of the video beforehand. Looking back, perhaps that was the moment that convinced me that it's okay not to be obvious when one is really trying to convey a message, among other things.

Actually, sometimes I wonder.

"Will we be the ones that die in vain, or will we be the ones to manage an extremely radical change?...

...Given the difficulty level and our limits and mortalities, that doesn't seem probable though. Maybe we'll manage to ignite some things..

...and like thousands others, die prematurely while trying, leaving behind tonnes of hope and wishes for the next generations, a high note..

..without ever knowing what they'll make out of them. Like a book that leaves its ending up to anyone's interpretation..

...And so the story will live on, perhaps to be repeated someday. But that would not be our business anymore...

..It's kinda sad. Our optimism has somewhat survived the process of growing up, but would probably be dulled anyway by the next phase, death."

A Mackerel's Inspiration

Me following my impulse to have a mackerel for lunch turns out to be a great decision. The thoughts I came up with! Who knows that contemplating over a mackerel dish could bear fruits so sweet? (laugh)

When you dream of someone dying

...that means at some points of time, you and that someone have loved each others dearly. However, the realm of our unconsciousness does not abide by our timeline linearity. So that moment could be happening anywhere - in the present, the past or the future.

That's what someone random told me a couple of years ago. Which is pretty random indeed. 

Found it.

I've been saying this many, many times both to myself and to others, but it seems that I've just understood the full meaning of it: Open up that mind. Close your mind, and you're the one who'll lose out on things. 

Yes, I'm having my traces of regrets here. I know that the past is the only thing that brings to us today, sure, but well - being human, there are things that you wish you'd do it differently. I'm saying that I've just understood something, but the possibility of re-discovering it in the future is never zero.

I don't know how to break or tunnel through the fifth wall, at least, yet, so I shall just imagine these bits of words could be a wish for my future self, and a faint signal to my past self. "Don't lose sight on that confidence that you love. Always."

Blind-planning a house reconstruction

...is terrible.

My soon-to-be-archi friends, half-a-cent worth of reminder. Sketch.