agitated

Affected? Damn well I am. It's eating me from inside. Reducing me into an idle being filled with compressed anxieties.

Damn.

But nononono, I don't want to give in completely. I'm rehabilitating myself by doing these small projects. Things nobody will find in my portfolio, CV, whatever. This is something I have decided. I simply want to use this time to make people who matter to me, happy.

I'm living for their happiness. No, I won't say it anymore and I'll show them my actions instead. That doesn't sound too bad. It's the least I can do with this anxiety-ridden body.