Firework

"What value left is there
in this world I live in?
I start thinking it's all meaningless
or maybe I'm just tired.

In exchange for something I got,
I gave up a number of precious things
but it's not such a peaceful world
that I can lament each and every one.

What kind of dreams should I envision?
What kind of hopes should I take with me as I go forward?
These seemingly impossible to answer questions
Get buried in my day to day life.

If you were here, I wonder what you would say?
you'd probably say I was being gloomy and have a laugh.
I just wish I could see your gentle smile to blow away my melancholy.

Even if it's a light like fireworks
that can never be caught
one more time, one more time, one more time, one more time
I want to reach out for it.

We all carry sadness with us
but we hope for a better tomorrow
I wonder to what extent we can love a world
gripped by fear, thrown into unrest?

I get choked up on the words cause I think too much
I hate how clumsy I am
Yet when I can act skillfully out of the blue
I hate that even more

Whether we spend the years laughing or crying
time passes the same for all
the future is calling to us
are you, now, hearing it too?

Even though we knew from the start
that we'd eventually have to say goodbye
one more time, one more time, one more time, one more time
and as many times as I can I hope to see you again.

I never imagined that simply meeting you
could make the world seem so beautiful
would you laugh at me for being simple minded?
I want to say thank you to you from my heart.

I wish my heart flowed fast and smooth like water
so that it would not settle in one place.

For all those times when I need to see you
for those times when I'll miss you so
one more time, one more time, one more time, one more time
I want to burn your memory deep in me.

We all have our problems
but we hope for a better tomorrow
I wonder to what extent we can love a world
gripped by fear, thrown into unrest?

one more time, one more time,
one more time, one more time"


Translated from the lyric of "HANABI" by Mr. Children.
....
look at me, fumbling like a child at choosing words to write. :/

It's a cheap trick, but for today I'll let that lyric to say them for me. Usually I'd post a video, but this one is a special case. Relatable lyric is one thing, but finding one that's kinda... too "true" is another. If I were to write a post today, I'd probably write something similar anyway. Think of it as a favorite poem of mine instead.

If anyone's curious, one could easily look up for the song in Youtube. It's a kinda popular song out there. And a good one, too.

Wishing everyone a good night and a better tomorrow.

On Timeline

The previous post was basically (and quite obviously) posted in the wrong log. (laugh) But, oh well. What is a nice sky without some stormy days.

So I was perching at my usual place, sorting things out while trying to cram some chemistry concepts in...

Colours

"...and when the boy opened his grey orbs, he saw an array of colours. So amazed he was, he wondered how he could not notice all this gradients and splashes before, each of them bringing distinct stories for him.

Letters

"Dear you, who is reading this letter, where are you and what are you doing now?
For me who's 15 years old, there are seeds of worries I can't tell anyone.
If it's a letter addressed to my future self, surely I can truly confide in myself.
Now, it seems that I'm about to be defeated and cry.
For someone who's seemingly about to disappear, whose words should I believe in?
...
Dear you, thank you. I have something to tell the 15 years old you.
If you continue asking what and where you should be going,
you'll be able to see the answer."

~"Tegami" - Angela Aki.

Been listening to this song since years ago and still loving it now. And this version makes me missing those choir days  :)

"Have a Good Time"

Yesterday it was my birthday.
I hung one more year on the line.
I should be depressed.
My life's a mess.
But I'm having a good time.

I've been loving and loving and loving.
I'm exhausted from loving so well
I should go to bed.
But a voice in my head says,
"Ah, what the hell."

~Paul Simon

Quoted from the opening line of a Haruki Murakami's anthology - Birthday Stories. :)

On Motivation

Rather than thinking if this is possible or not, I'd rather distract myself with other thoughts. Happy thoughts. Sad thoughts. Smile inducing thoughts. Thoughts that would make me feel like kicking through a wall and running towards something worth pursuing.

I think it's something like...

"I know more than you'd like."
"But no more than I allow."
"Then again, more than you know."

...

Ok can. Play on.